Fine, I'm horribly impatient. Fine, I like him more than a friend. Fine, this is where God is calling me right now.
Sometimes I feel like God and I have little push and pull conversations in my head when I'm trying to fall asleep at night. I can hear Him telling me to do something or realize something and I just fight it, until finally I submit to Him and realize He's right. So yeah, that's my Monday nights. Debating with God through my own head on what I should be doing or thinking.
But ultimately, I submit every time, because who I am to question my Creator? Who am I to judge His plan? I can't see the future, I can't see the bigger picture, and therefore sometimes my own mind needs to "shut up" (as I'll rudely put it). I need to remind myself to listen to Him and not try to take things into my own hands.
In my late night "talks" with God, I also find myself wary to even admit things to myself. I don't want to say that I like him, because then I can get hurt. I don't want to admit I'm impatient, because then I'm flawed even more. It's hard to admit the deep truths about your heart to anyone, even yourself. So here's what I learned this past week: I can admit it to Him.
"In him we have redemption through his blood, the forgiveness of sins, in accordance with the riches of God's grace." - Ephesians 1:7
I can admit all my flaws, all my sins, all my feelings to Him. He has infinite grace and wraps me in his arms and accepts every flaw, everything about me. And he accepts you too. So, humble your heart before him, and show Him your flaws and feelings openly, cause He already sees them and is waiting with open arms to pick you up and comfort you. Be humble before Him.
"When pride comes, then comes disgrace, but with humility comes wisdom,"- Proverbs 11:2
5 Prayers to Admit to Him:
Sometimes I feel like God and I have little push and pull conversations in my head when I'm trying to fall asleep at night. I can hear Him telling me to do something or realize something and I just fight it, until finally I submit to Him and realize He's right. So yeah, that's my Monday nights. Debating with God through my own head on what I should be doing or thinking.
But ultimately, I submit every time, because who I am to question my Creator? Who am I to judge His plan? I can't see the future, I can't see the bigger picture, and therefore sometimes my own mind needs to "shut up" (as I'll rudely put it). I need to remind myself to listen to Him and not try to take things into my own hands.
In my late night "talks" with God, I also find myself wary to even admit things to myself. I don't want to say that I like him, because then I can get hurt. I don't want to admit I'm impatient, because then I'm flawed even more. It's hard to admit the deep truths about your heart to anyone, even yourself. So here's what I learned this past week: I can admit it to Him.
"In him we have redemption through his blood, the forgiveness of sins, in accordance with the riches of God's grace." - Ephesians 1:7
I can admit all my flaws, all my sins, all my feelings to Him. He has infinite grace and wraps me in his arms and accepts every flaw, everything about me. And he accepts you too. So, humble your heart before him, and show Him your flaws and feelings openly, cause He already sees them and is waiting with open arms to pick you up and comfort you. Be humble before Him.
"When pride comes, then comes disgrace, but with humility comes wisdom,"- Proverbs 11:2
5 Prayers to Admit to Him:
- I am flawed- I mess up a thousand times a day. I say the wrong thing, I don't respond the way I should. O Lord, I need you and your grace to pick me up and to fill me and all of my imperfections. Help me to strive daily to pursue characteristics like you.
- This feeling scares me- I don't know how I feel right now. I don't know how to react, how to respond. I need you O God, to help me, to give me peace, and to accept what I am feeling right now.
- I don't know the future- Lord, I can't see the bigger picture. I can't see your overall plan. Let your will be done and help me respond to your will with joy and peace in my heart. For I put my trust in you and know that you have the best way.
- I'm a sinner- I fall into Satan's trap time and time again. I give into temptation, I say cruel words, and I act wrongly to you and to others. Lord, forgive me for all that I have done, and help me to be more like Jesus moving forward.
- I need you- I can't do this by myself Lord. I need you. I need your strength, I need your love, I need your compassion, I need your forgiveness, I need your patience- I need you Lord. You are the Creator of the world and I need you every moment.
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